Time

I have been waiting forever for this man it seems. He is the absolute best for me. I believe that everyone has one true love in a lifetime. He is mine. He has said he needs clarity during the summer to make some big decisions. About to tell him enough is enough. I am tired of handling life alone.

True Love

This is a most difficult position to be in. I love this man; he can not commit even though we both know he loves me and my children. I have been waiting for two years now. Every time I am about to say goodbye never call or contact me again. He does something that is such a wow I can not do it and think he is getting much better. I have not put life on hold I am moving forward at times when I make a decision I consider what would be easiest if/when he decides he can handle the love we share.

April 6, 2005

Started to talk to a guy last Saturday that is quite nice and has a friend that is being played just as I am. He does not know that part yet. I think he is still hooked on his ex-girlfriend of 9 months. He keeps saying 9 months like it is a magic number. He is still text messaging her and expects her to answer and be a friend.

My ex-fiancee still has the power to tear me up. A call from him caused me to dump a wonderful guy last year. He is not really that awesome, there is just something about him that has my heart. I still do not understand why he could not go through with marrying me. Maybe some day it will come out. He does message me first with any extra good or extra bad news.

Writing thoughts on the net for any stranger to see could become addictive.